Like many of you who may live on the east coast, we were hit with quite a bit of snow on Friday and Saturday. We didn’t have anywhere we had to go, so Kev and I enjoyed our time being snowed in. We did manage to get out yesterday evening in the indestructable Toyota 4×4.
One thing I was determined to do was to write Andrew’s name in the freshly-fallen snow. I copied the idea from some other angel baby mommies. I hope y’all don’t mind me copying!!
This morning was tough. Church was cancelled and when I hopped in the shower, my chest started to get really heavy. I knew what was coming, as this normally happens when I’m about to start sobbing. When I got out, I hopped on the bed and journaled a little bit and spent a little time in the word. Here’s my journal entry from this morning.
One thing I want to clarify right away is that I don’t mean for that journal entry to sound like we don’t appreciate receiving picture Christmas cards from our friends and family. In fact, I’d probably be a little hurt if we were left off your lists this year just because we lost our son. Receiving your cards doesn’t make the pain worse, it just brings the pain to the surface, which is actually a good thing. If we don’t deal with the pain, it will eat us up inside. And, just so you know, we actually plan to send our very own picture Christmas card – I just haven’t managed to get them in the mail yet 🙂 I plan to post it here as well since we can’t possibly send it to everyone.
I re-read some of the verses that our pastor shared with us at Andrew’s memorial service. These verses offered us so much hope in the midst of our heartache.