I’ve actually been doing really well lately. I feel good about where I’m at right now. Don’t get me wrong, I hate that my son is not in my arms, but I guess God is slowly healing my heart. There will always be a part of it missing, but the deep, deep heartache is slowly diminishing. I have my moments when it returns, but overall, I feel like I have made pretty good progress.
In our support group, we’ve discussed how grief is hard work. I certainly would have to agree with that. Christmas was physically draining. It was good, but it took so much energy and effort to just get through it. I’m glad we’ve jumped that hurdle.
I’m hopeful. I’m excited about this commitment to run in the 10k and getting back on Weight Watchers. I’m excited to continue working on projects at my house. I have some good goals ahead, and I’m excited about them.
I had lunch with a good friend today. It was so nice to reconnect and catch up on things. I talked about Christmas and how we were doing without Andrew. It was so good to talk about our little boy. Throughout our conversation, she mentioned his name numerous times and it was honestly music to my ears. I love it when people talk about our son by name. It doesn’t happen as often as I’d like.
I’m so thankful to the Lord for bringing Kevin and I through these 5 months. I’m so thankful for the promise of an eternity in heaven through Christ Jesus. I’m so thankful for our non-traditional family. I’m so thankful for him, for Andrew.