I know I mentioned this already, but if you remember, could you please say a prayer for me at 1pm tomorrow (Monday, Jan 11th)? My bone marrow biopsy is scheduled for tomorrow and I’m starting to get a little nervous this evening. Thanks to those of you who have already said you’d pray – I appreciate it so much!! And by the way, feel free to send along your prayer requests too. Sometimes I feel like I always ask for prayer and I’d certainly love to lift you all up in prayer as well!
I’ve actually been less nervous about it since my recent post, but tonight my fears and anxieties have a changed a little. At first, I was nervous about the procedure itself. Prior to getting pregnant and delivering Andrew, I could count the number of times I had been to the doctor as an adult on probably 1 hand. I never had any health issues or surgeries, so I didn’t really know about my tolerance for pain. Then, Andrew came along and I experienced labor. For anyone wondering if delivering a stillborn child hurts, the answer is YES! 🙂 Sorry, I digress…
My original fear was basically about whether the procedure would hurt. I have always heard bone marrow tests can hurt – and why would having a big needle inserted into your bone NOT hurt? Well, recently, I haven’t been thinking too much about the procedure itself, but more so about what the results could be.
I used to consider myself a pretty worry-free person when it came to health, but I’m finding that isn’t so much the case anymore. Don’t get me wrong – I’m not lying awake at night thinking through every worst-case scenario or anything (praise the Lord), but I’ve come to realize that medical issues are real, and I’m not immune. Just because I lost Andrew, doesn’t mean I couldn’t have leukemia or something really terrible. I just have no clue what they could find tomorrow. And although I don’t have any reason to believe they’ll find anything serious, I still have fear about it. Whether I mean to or not, that’s where my mind is at right now.
I’m praying really hard that everything will be fine, and that they’ll just determine I have unexplained low platelets, but I just don’t know. I’m so thankful that God does, though. He knows my body inside and out and I’m so grateful that he does.
Thanks again for praying – I really do appreciate it. I’ve learned so much lately that God does answer prayers. Life may not always turn out the way we’d like, but he hears the prayers of his people and I know he desires to give me peace tomorrow, so I better ask for it!