I couldn’t let this day pass without a post about Father’s Day. Kevin and I are still trying to figure out exactly what it means to be a mother and father to a baby in heaven, and as much as we know we are already parents, days like today are still a little odd.
The other day when I was looking for a card for Kevin, I struggled to find one that would be appropriate. So many of them have cute little pictures of daddy’s with their children. And the messages inside go on and on about fatherhood. It was hard to find the right card that would be appropriate for Kevin this Father’s Day. He’s 100% a father, and great one at that, but since Andrew is heaven, it just looks different. I guess we’re still getting used to all this.
Anyway, despite it all, it was a good day. We went to church like normal and we ate at the restaurant of Kevin’s choice. Would you believe he chose Arbys?? Ha – that’s my husband and my baby’s daddy alright!! We didn’t do a whole lot to commemorate the day. I asked Kevin if he was emotional at all today, or if it was weird for him. He said he couldn’t help but wish Andrew were here, but overall, he didn’t seem down about things. We still wish he was here, but know we will enjoy our reunion some day.
I do want to take a little time to dote on my hubby for a few minutes. I am being completely genuine when I say that God knew exactly what I needed when he gave me Kevin. We are different in so many ways, but we balance each other out really well. At the core of it though, we both have similar goals and desires for our family. He loves the Lord, and it’s been good for me to see his childlike faith over the years. He helps me to not over analyze too much and over complicate things when I have a tendency to.
He is one of the most patient men I have ever met. He is also an incredible servant. He helps around the house and usually is more than willing to grab me a cup of water from the kitchen once we have already laid down for bed! He is also an incredibly hard worker. He puts his all into his job and works so hard to provide for our family. And of course, he is a great daddy! It was such a privilege to see him hold our son with such tenderness and love. I also loved seeing the thrill on his face during ultrasounds and when he felt Andrew move inside my belly! I hate that Kevin is missing out on making more memories with our son, but I am so grateful to have seen them “meet” in the hospital when Andrew was born.