Dear Andrew,
Mommy misses you so much right now. Daddy is working at a football game tonight. He’s worked so hard this week, but is trying to earn some extra money for our family. You would be so proud of your Daddy. He works so hard for us and loves us both so much. When he could have had the entire summer off, he spent his time teaching summer school to make sure he would be a good provider for us.
I know your Daddy would love for both of us to be at the game with him right now, so he could show you off to all his coworkers and students. I’m so sad that we can’t be there together as a family of 3 tonight.
Daddy is so proud of you. When we got our first picture of you, he brought it in to show his students. He posted it on his whiteboard at school and kept it there the entire school year. He was so proud that you would be his first son, and was so excited. He even asked his students for ideas on what we could name you. He got lots of suggestions, some more interesting than others.
Now that fall is officially in full swing, I’m starting to realize more of what we will miss out on without you here with us. We had so many plans for you, Andrew.
We had planned to take you on long walks around the lake at UR and to Maymont Park on Sunday afternoons when the weather was still warm. We had planned to take you to MacKenzie’s 5th birthday party next month. She was so excited too.
We had planned to take you up to Washington, DC while your Grandma and Grandpa Eddins (and Aunt Stacey, Uncle Chris, and Cousin Vanessa) were here visiting at the end of October. I had planned on dressing you up so cute for the trick-or-treaters on Halloween night. All those plans for you, but my arms are empty. I wish so much that they were holding you.
You are my little man and I miss you so much. I know I shouldn’t be sad, because you are in heaven, the most perfect place ever, where you will never experience the pain and sadness that I feel. You are with Jesus and that does make me smile, but my heart still longs to be with you now. You are so loved and you always will be. Your daddy and I miss you so much and can’t wait to see that precious smile that we dreamed about for 9 months.
We love you,
Mommy and Daddy
oh sarah, my heart is aching for you. i will be praying for you extra lots tonight. i have been reading your blog for a while and i lift you and your husband up in prayer regularly…i hope you feel andrew's presence tonight in some special way that you never have before.
Praying for you today
oh Sarah. I know it's been so long since we've seen eachother, but I feel like reading this blog is a window into your soul. Kevin sounds like such an amazing man! What an incredible relationship the two of you have. Please never forget that there is an old friend in NYC that thinks about you and prays for you EVERY DAY.