It has been 5 months since I held my beautiful Andrew. I miss that little boy more than words can even express! I love him deeper than I ever thought possible!
I’ve actually been doing really well lately. I feel good about where I’m at right now. Don’t get me wrong, I hate that my son is not in my arms, but I guess God is slowly healing my heart. There will always be a part of it missing, but the deep, deep heartache is slowly diminishing. I have my moments when it returns, but overall, I feel like I have made pretty good progress.
In our support group, we’ve discussed how grief is hard work. I certainly would have to agree with that. Christmas was physically draining. It was good, but it took so much energy and effort to just get through it. I’m glad we’ve jumped that hurdle.
I’m hopeful. I’m excited about this commitment to run in the 10k and getting back on Weight Watchers. I’m excited to continue working on projects at my house. I have some good goals ahead, and I’m excited about them.
I had lunch with a good friend today. It was so nice to reconnect and catch up on things. I talked about Christmas and how we were doing without Andrew. It was so good to talk about our little boy. Throughout our conversation, she mentioned his name numerous times and it was honestly music to my ears. I love it when people talk about our son by name. It doesn’t happen as often as I’d like.
I’m so thankful to the Lord for bringing Kevin and I through these 5 months. I’m so thankful for the promise of an eternity in heaven through Christ Jesus. I’m so thankful for our non-traditional family. I’m so thankful for him, for Andrew.
I just said a prayer for you and your family. It sounds like you are staying focused on some exciting things! 🙂 Wow- you are so strong!
For some reason, my original comment was not published. I'll try to remember what I said so that I can say it again! Just wanted to stop by after reading your comment on my "peeling back the layers" post. I'm so glad I stopped by to visit, and read more about your sweet Andrew. What a blessing that your friend mentioned his name. Even so many years later, I am still blessed everytime I hear the names of my Faith, Grace, and Thomas.
Praying for both of you this evening….praying that God will continue to comfort and carry you with His daily sufficient grace. Also…praying for you as you seek to get back on track with eating healthy and exercising. What a wonderful goal to run in the 10k. I'm sure God will bless your efforts.
Oh…also…I love the name of your blog. How true it is!