Impatient

Yes, we’re still here!  Things have been crazy the past few weeks!  Ever since we got back from vacation back in mid-August, we’ve been knee deep in this renovation on our room.  We’re almost finished converting our screened porch into a home office.  This weekend was probably the craziest. My husband and father spent practically every second of the weekend laying the hardwood floors and putting up the base trim, quarter round, and window moulding.  It looks great!  I’ll post more pictures when we are finished! 

It’s been good to have something to help keep my mind off the fact that I still have 12 more weeks until I get to meet my daughter, but I’m definitely ready for this room to be done!  We still have to paint the room and do all the final touches before we move the furniture in.  I don’t have any decorative vision yet, but I have some ideas.  We’ll get there…..eventually!

Like I said, it’s been nice to have a distraction, but I’m still struggling with being impatient.  Now that school is back in session and fall is practically upon us, I find myself getting more and more impatient awaiting Savannah’s arrival.  I need to nip this in the bud because I still have about 3 more months! 

I also have to admit that I’ve struggled a little with jealousy.  I have some friends who have delivered their babies recently or who are due very soon, and I’m honestly a little jealous.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been praying for these babies and their mommies and I’m praising the Lord with these families, but I guess I just wish that I could have experienced that they are experiencing/about to experience with their children.  Yes, I did experience labor and delivered a beautiful little boy, but I didn’t get to experience nursing for the first time or hearing his cry.  Oh, how I wish I could have.  So, while I’m ecstatic for these dear friends (who have supported us tremendously over the past year), I’m just a little sad that I missed out on that with Andrew.  And, the fact that I have to wait 12 more weeks to experience that with Savannah is not easy either. 

But, the Lord has been faithful. Things are looking great with my little rainbow baby!  We got to see her last week at my monthly ultrasound with my high risk doctor.  She is measuring right on schedule and basically smack dab in the middle of the growth charts.  So far, our little girl is in the 53rd percentile and weighing in at 1 lb. 13 ozs.  We’ll see if she beats her brother out – he was almost always in the 75th percentile and was 8 lbs. when he was delivered at 39 weeks. 

I talked with my high risk doctor about delivery and he feels like our best bet would be to deliver between the 37th and 38th week.  Since Andrew’s death was essentially unexplained, he doesn’t feel like the risks of waiting to go into labor on my own outweigh the risks of prematurity.  As he put it, “I think you’d rather have your baby alive and in the NICU for a night than to risk another stillbirth.”  AMEN to that!  He did explain that while they don’t like to do elective inductions, he wouldn’t even consider our induction to be elective, based on our history with Andrew.

I felt really good about our discussion.  Obviously, it’s still soon to be making an official plans, but I like his thinking and have a lot of trust in his opinion.  He wants to continue seeing me monthly until 32 weeks, and would then like to see me for weekly testing.  I think it would be a combination of non stress tests and ultrasounds.  I don’t know what that would mean as far as appointments with my OB, so I plan to discuss that with her tomorrow at my 26 week appointment.   

Speaking of that, I have my glucose test tomorrow, so that should be fun!  I’m praying that all will be well and that there are no signs of gestational diabetes!  I feel like I’m seeing tons of doctors already between my blood doctor and my pregnancy appointments! 

I’ve been terrible about posting ultrasound pictures and taking belly shots.  We’ve been having some issues with our scanner and I’ve been bad about taking the belly shots.  Most nights, I come home from work and immediately change into PJ’s.  Needless to say, those would not make for good belly shots to post anywhere!  I plan to start tomorrow though.  I can have Kevin take one before my appointment so I’m dressed and ready to go!!

Until then…..