In case you couldn’t guess by the title, I’ve been struggling the past few days and today was the breaking point. After a great appointment on Tuesday and lots of movements on Wednesday, I have found myself overcome with fear the past few days. I had a moment on Thursday evening before a women’s event with church that triggered it, but then it got better after feeling good movements shortly thereafter. It’s been a struggle ever since then. I’ve felt Savannah move and have continued to do regular kick counts, but I have to admit that I’m a wreck on the inside. Today I broke down, crying out to the Lord quite literally that I can’t do this anymore. I’m finding that this balancing act of trusting the Lord yet being ever so aware of my daughter’s every move (or lack thereof) to be utterly draining and I honestly don’t know how I’m going to get through the rest of this pregnancy. I am trying to trust the Lord, but also trying to be a wise and aware mother. If something is wrong, I want to be aware enough to notice.
Thus, the title of this post.
I’d like to ask for the prayer warriors out there who follow my blog to join me in very deliberate prayer these next 9 weeks. Many of you have told me that you are praying, which I appreciate so much, but I’m pleading for all you prayer warriors to step it up a notch if you can. I’d like to ask that you might consider picking a certain time of day or day of the week to bring Savannah and I (and Kevin) before the Father in prayer. Maybe on your way to work? Or while you are washing your hair in the shower? I’m so drained today that I’m not even 100% sure what to ask for you all to pray for, but here are a few things that come to mind.
– Savannah’s health and growth these last few weeks. That she would be healthy and strong by the time she is born, whenever that date might be. That blood flow through her cord would be good and her heart would beat strong.
– That my body would continue to support Savannah. That my cervix would remain strong and that my blood pressure and other vitals would remain normal.
– My spiritual walk. That I would not allow Satan to have a stronghold during the rest of this pregnancy. That the Lord would give me all that I need to get through the next 9 weeks.
– My husband, Kevin. That he would know how to support and encourage me in the midst of a busy semester at school.
If you feel led, would you consider posting a comment so we might know when you plan to pray?
I honestly hate relying on people for things, but I’m realizing that this fear struggle is much bigger than I could ever conquer on my own. I know that the devil delights in seeing me fearful, and I can just picture the devil cringing as he hears all the prayers and petitions on our behalf. Thank you so much for all the prayers and support thus far. We appreciate it more than you know.
Praying for you, Sarah. . .I'll pray for you at breakfast, when the kids and I are doing our Bible reading.
Cindy
Sarah – Absolutely. I will pray for you guys on my way into work… the metro is my personal prayer closet. 😉
I'll say a prayer for you Sarah, as my 2 grandbabies are dropped off at my house @ 7:20 in the mornings…as I look at them, I will pray that Savannah will arrive, strong, healthy, happy and shower you with all God's blessings 🙂
I will be praying for you Sarah…I KNOW where you are at. It is a struggle to totally put your trust in God when the outcome you are waiting for is SO very special!! I am praying for your peace and that you will be able to enjoy your pregnancy with Savannah just as you did with her big brother. I will pray for you at 10:00 pm (and probably other times as well!)
Sarah, I will most certainly continue to pray for you, Savannah and Kevin. Count on me to pray during the day as I drive around for work. I will also have Aidan pray for Savannah before he goes to bed at night. We love you!
Brendalin
I will take 10:00am and 2:00pm during Emmie's naptimes, Sarah. Love you.
Kara
I will be praying for you in my morning time with the Father…usually, 6:00-6:30.
Sarah,
I will pray for you first thing in the morning around 6:30. Love you!
Kirsten
Sarah – Jenny and I will be praying together for you, Kevin, and Savannah at dinner time and when we are getting ready for bed. We know how anxious you must be feeling right now. God is in control, and He is faithful.
— Billy
Sarah
I will pray for you as I drive to work each morning between 8-8:30am central time.
Kristin
I will pray for you Sarah, every time I am in the car driving throughout my day. Rest in our God who always keeps his promises, and who will give you HIS peace when you have none of your own. Love you!
Jenny Dickerson
Sarah, I will be praying for you around 8:30-9:00 each morning as the girls and I do our morning devotions! We look forward to seeing God deliver you both! Love you!
Sarah – I'll be praying for you when I wash dishes!
We'll pray as a family at dinner each night! Thank you for calling on us to "hold your hands up" when you don't have the strength to do so! We love you!
Sarah,
I will pray when I'm in the shower. The time varies but know that I it will be daily! I know what the enemy can do with fear and we need to wither his attempts to steal your JOY!
Kathy Mann
I'm praying for you my friend through the rest of your pregnancy. THat God will deliver your little girl safely into your arms.
Praying for you sweet friend! Especially during my quiet time in the morning but also throughout the day as well!
I dont know why your posts havent been coming up on my dashboard BUT I wanted you to know that every morning around 6am (Alabama time hehe) you are on my prayer list. And I pray for you specifically. I will continue to do so ove rthe next 9 weeks as well!!