The past couple of days have been tough. I should have seen it coming since it had been a little while since I had cried. I could feel the tears building up ever since Thursday when I had an appointment with my blood doctor. Speaking of which, my platelets are still low, but my levels have increased since the pregnancy with Andrew, so that is good. He wants me to come back in 3 months to see if … [Read more...]
No Friday Night Football Games
Dear Andrew, Mommy misses you so much right now. Daddy is working at a football game tonight. He's worked so hard this week, but is trying to earn some extra money for our family. You would be so proud of your Daddy. He works so hard for us and loves us both so much. When he could have had the entire summer off, he spent his time teaching summer school to make sure he would be a good provider for … [Read more...]
Identity Crisis
The past few weeks, I've certainly felt a roller coaster of emotions - some very painful and then some that are joyful. In the midst of this grief journey, I think I'm also having somewhat of an identity crisis. I'll try to explain. For most of my life, I've always had an idea of what was ahead. Through school, I always had a glimpse of what was coming next (even if but just a small glimpse). In … [Read more...]
Andrew’s Story: Post-Partum Visit & Autopsy Results
Today was my post-partum visit with the OB. I had some mixed emotions going into the appointment, especially since the last time I was in that office was when we found out the terrible news about our little Andrew. When I sat in the waiting room to be called back, I was sort of in a daze. There were at least 3 women who looked to be very far along in their pregnancies, and part of me really wished … [Read more...]
Praise You In This Storm
I have missed Andrew terribly the past couple of days. Every day, I make a point to look at his pictures, as they are all I have of him these days. Kevin and I were talking tonight as we were riding home from youth group that Andrew will always be a part of us and our family. No matter how many kids we end up raising, he will always be a part of me and our family unit. Andrew has changed … [Read more...]
