Missing Him

I’m not a big fan of snow and cold weather, especially when it happens when you have places to go and things to do. But, I actually enjoy snow when I’m at home on the weekend, after a tiring first week back at work. Last night, Kevin and I decided to camp out on our living room floor and watch movies. I’ll save my husband some humiliation and won’t share what movies we chose – he’s quite the trooper, I’ll tell you that. We are definitely getting older though, as we both were a little achy by the end of the second movie. Our 2o+ year old full size mattress never felt so good!

It felt so nice to sleep in this morning and to have no place that we had to be. I like Saturdays like that in general, but especially when the snow essentially forces you to stop and slow down. It’s nice to have time to catch up on laundry, cook a meal, and perhaps even snuggle up with a good book. Normally, I’d be ecstatic for a day like today….

But it’s just not the same without our Andrew. On days like this, I envision us all cozy together as a family of 3, enjoying some play time and snuggle time. Days like today are all about family for me, but it’s just not the same. Our family is separated right now, so there’s a little ache that comes with days like today.

I don’t mean to come across all sad and depressed, because I’m really not. I’m enjoying my time with my hubby today, and cherishing the freedom that we have because we know things won’t be the same once we bring a baby home. But, as he prayed last night at the dinner table, we hope that one day soon we’ll have lots of kiddies running around this house of ours. And no matter when that happens, we will always feel like someone is missing, especially on snowed-in days like today. It’s just the reality of our lives right now.

I hope that all you east-coasters are able to stop or slow down a little this weekend and enjoy the peace that comes with falling snow. Our God has blessed us with a reason to just be…..which is so nice when you live in a culture like ours that is all about doing.

Here’s a great verse that Ed shared last weekend at the youth retreat, when the snow was falling then. It’s a beautiful image of the Lord’s creativity.

Psalm 147:16
“He spreads the snow like wool and scatters the frost like ashes.”

Dear Andrew,

Mommy and Daddy miss you so much today. We wish you could be here with us as we watch the beautiful snow that God has given us today. We wish we could hold you in our arms and keep you nice and warm on such a cold day. But we are thankful in knowing that you are being held by the Saviour himself. You are completely content and in perfect peace. No snow day on earth could ever compare to that. We love you so much, our precious baby boy, and miss you more than you know!

Love,

Mommy & Daddy